Porcelian Doll

Words of a wise woman "I had a porcelian doll I had onto it way too tightly and when it broke I swore I'd never hold onto something so tightly again." Finally finding what you have been wanting and praying for is a blessing in its self.. But when that blessing is taken away from you, it causes you to take a step back from the situation and evaluate. This thing happened so fast.. I dont wanna call it love because I dont really know what love is. But I know it has potential! One thing I do know is that I dont want to be bamboozled. I know many people will have things to say but there is only one captain of this ship.. I hope I am going in the right direction.. I can see it but it feels more like a fairy tale. But they do say fairytales have happy endings I hope this is true. Because when im with you I feel happy I feel loved and I feel like I cant wait to be with you again. I dont know if thats because of the situation of you leaving me..I have never been in a situation like this.. I never had someon show me the affection the way you have.. Or maybe I have and I just eat the shit up when you give it to me. Whatever it is I love it and I hope the fire doesnt burn out on either side..

Bifocals

I always sit and think.. maybe I think too much maybe thats the problem. But thinking has gotten me far n this life.. People ask why I dont talk much.. Im more of an observer.. I sit back and watch the world. At times it feels like it is passing me by but other times I feel like im way above the rest..At times I feel like I have friends and at times I feel alone. But what is a friend any way.. Someone you can go too and someone that knows all your secrets.. I like to say I have associates and one good friend. And she doesnt even know everything about me.. Over these years I realized its hard to say goodbye! But when its like I have been saying goodbye to you my friend for the past 2 years... So its not so hard. I dispise <--sp kissing peoples ass. Sometimes I do things that are misunderstood.. Sometimes I can be a bitch! But friends always look past that.. A friendship is a bond.. And you my friend have let that bond unravel. I was still holding on but wats the purpose when all I will be left with is strands and memories from our friendship bond. As much as I would like to forget about you its hard because you have been my friend for so long. But I guess thats the way life is.. Its already written. They say people are in your life for a season and I guess our season has passed... I just dont understand how you let people bring us apart I thought we were bff's...