21... As I left my teenage years I thought like every day im getting closer and closer to OLD! My mind set was like that Toys R Us commercial I dont wanna grow up cuz I wouldnt b a ToysRUs kid. But once 21 arrived I realized I have my whole life ahead of me.. this is just the beginning. There is a long rode ahead with twist and turns. But im ready.. I can't see the end, but I can definately see a path.

So Now Im Gonna B 4 I'z..... 8-I

the ralph lauren's r pretty cool... but the black and white D&G's r my fav...

these bulgari's r pretty dope

Put Your Own Picture On The Ceiling

I use to have a wall full with pictures of celebrities people I longed to meet or even be with.. These were people u can say I sorta idolized. What I didnt realize was that these "idols" were people just like me. PEOPLE that were once like me,, PEOPLE that dreamed in their room. But these PEOPLE followed their dream and made this DREAM into a reality. Its nothing spectacular about them they dont have any super powers or they were once just like me. We have been told since we were young believe in yourself... If you dont believe in yourself who will?? Then there are those people that say 1 outta 1,000,000,000 people become famous. But with faith and determination you can do any thing you just gotta put yourself out there.

I also thought about life and how we are consistantly comparing ourselves to the next person. What somebody else has may not work for you. Somebody has an audi that aint gone work for me.. Somebody has a man that aint what i need in my life right now. I came to realize what God wants me to have I will have. Also things I cant control I shouldnt even worry about. Because I cant control it.

So instead of comparing myself to somebody else im just gonna b me. I took down all those posters and I put up a couple of myself because im not so bad. : )

Im Black and Im Proud

Black History is so interesting our schools have watered down the importance of African American Histoy.. Its been so long since I have learned about black inventions, poets, writers, etc in school. I have been in melting pots of schools for the past 9 years and on black history month we dont discuss the struggle of African Americans.
People are fighting to keep the arts and the extra curricular activities in our schools.. but what about the blacks?? We need black programs n our schools... All that bullshit we learn in the history books wars and george washington thats all fine but we need to learn about the people that got us this far.
As black people we need to know where we came from... If everyone had a good understanding of where we came from we wouldnt be so hateful towards one another.. I kno I can't change the world but when people read this it can help them open up their mind...
We should celebrate black history everyday of our lives...

Boy I Need You Bad as A Heart Beat....

I want you but u dont kno it... or do u?

Here we go again.. smh

I can't let u get the best of me..

Baby I need u bad.

Heartless

ok so I thought I found mr. perfect.. well guess wat he tried to trick tha gucci. he wine n dined me spent that good dough but he wasnt just trickin that dough on me. he was also trickin off on a girl right around the way. imagine that!! i found out he was messin wit shorty and n he like well why u still talk to me.. in my mind im thinkin like cuz u spendin that money nigga. FUCK! how u gone b a pimp n u losing. get yo life together clown. thats exactly why im gonna start talkin to non black guys.. i see why black men dont want black women they probably feel like i feel right now. when u get screwed over so much you become apathetic. so now im raising my standards.. n e body know of n e suga daddies? lmfao. jk.

He's Definately a Psycho

Guys r animals all of them.. Its like u get one and u think like he may be different bcuz he tells u so.. But they are all the same. So I let whatever they say go n one ear n out the other. N it seems that every guy I meet I kinda fall n luv with them. haha its so dumb.

I had 2 crazy guys to start off o9 so what does that say about the rest of the year?? Hopefully nothing.. : (

The last crazy guy was dope luved his style, smile, all that. He was a little young he didnt have a ride but his splashiness over compinsated all that.

But I went to his house after we had like a 2 week break which was totally not my idea.. He just didnt call me for two weeks n when he finally did I went to his house like a idiot..

Everything went well until he tried to get me to go down on him.. Im like "DUDE NO WAY" then he tried to force me into doin it..

I was so frickin scared because he started to like choke me n shit.. wtf!!!

I havent talked to him since.