Im Black and Im Proud

Black History is so interesting our schools have watered down the importance of African American Histoy.. Its been so long since I have learned about black inventions, poets, writers, etc in school. I have been in melting pots of schools for the past 9 years and on black history month we dont discuss the struggle of African Americans.
People are fighting to keep the arts and the extra curricular activities in our schools.. but what about the blacks?? We need black programs n our schools... All that bullshit we learn in the history books wars and george washington thats all fine but we need to learn about the people that got us this far.
As black people we need to know where we came from... If everyone had a good understanding of where we came from we wouldnt be so hateful towards one another.. I kno I can't change the world but when people read this it can help them open up their mind...
We should celebrate black history everyday of our lives...

Boy I Need You Bad as A Heart Beat....

I want you but u dont kno it... or do u?

Here we go again.. smh

I can't let u get the best of me..

Baby I need u bad.

Heartless

ok so I thought I found mr. perfect.. well guess wat he tried to trick tha gucci. he wine n dined me spent that good dough but he wasnt just trickin that dough on me. he was also trickin off on a girl right around the way. imagine that!! i found out he was messin wit shorty and n he like well why u still talk to me.. in my mind im thinkin like cuz u spendin that money nigga. FUCK! how u gone b a pimp n u losing. get yo life together clown. thats exactly why im gonna start talkin to non black guys.. i see why black men dont want black women they probably feel like i feel right now. when u get screwed over so much you become apathetic. so now im raising my standards.. n e body know of n e suga daddies? lmfao. jk.

He's Definately a Psycho

Guys r animals all of them.. Its like u get one and u think like he may be different bcuz he tells u so.. But they are all the same. So I let whatever they say go n one ear n out the other. N it seems that every guy I meet I kinda fall n luv with them. haha its so dumb.

I had 2 crazy guys to start off o9 so what does that say about the rest of the year?? Hopefully nothing.. : (

The last crazy guy was dope luved his style, smile, all that. He was a little young he didnt have a ride but his splashiness over compinsated all that.

But I went to his house after we had like a 2 week break which was totally not my idea.. He just didnt call me for two weeks n when he finally did I went to his house like a idiot..

Everything went well until he tried to get me to go down on him.. Im like "DUDE NO WAY" then he tried to force me into doin it..

I was so frickin scared because he started to like choke me n shit.. wtf!!!

I havent talked to him since.

Choke that Chicken

Im sittin @ the computer n the lab @ school and there r two guys on both sides of me.. So the guy to my right puts his hand n his sweater.. Then he starts to move his hand. Im thinkin like I kno this fool aint beatin his shit right next to me.. He started movin his hand faster so then I kno wats up.. He was definately choking that chicken. I will b sure to have hand sanitizer on deck @ all times.. The shit u see @ MVCC.

Just Somethings On My Mind.....

Swag---- soooo I luv this word. But just like all other popular words it has its season. Everyone wants to have swag but everyone doesnt have it. I like to think of it this word like love. You cant use it so freely. You cant tell someone u luv them when u really dont. So u shouldnt say u have swag when u really dont.

I was watching 106 n park n these dudes from the bay had a song n dance "lean get yo swagger right" the shit was hot. N the best thing about it .... they all had swag. I luv cali's swag as well as new york swag its priceless.

You rarely see people wit swag in Chicago u gotta go downtown for that. Then its like everybody jump on the bandwagon when a trend come out. Be original man!

Moving On!!!!!!

Let the past b the past: I hate when people let their past control their future. This one guy I had a lil thing for he was damaged goods. He was like a brick wall he wouldnt let his self go, he wouldnt give me his all because he was afriad.

By doing this he aint doin nothing but cuttin himself short. He gotta see that everyone aint gone b like o girl. I just think our whole lil situation was unfortunate. Oh yea and he got mad SWAG!!!! That's wat I like about him real talk.

Last....

Ok one of my ex's we are like still cool or whatever. He has a lil girlfriend but he calls me and tells me how he would get wit me... All the time im thinkin like whats up wit ya girl. Cuz just last week he told me that he loves her. But if u love her so much why u callin me? I dunno.

But heres the killer part he told me if I lost 15 to 20 pounds he would wife me... WHAT THE HELL!!!! if that aint the dummest crap I dunno what is. I mean either u like me or u dont. Take it or leave it. I just cant believe that he would even fix his lips to say sumtin so stupid. Just another piece of evidence that guys r dumb....

Time changes and heals all wounds but time goes by so slowly while healing.
It's like you want the pain go away but everywhere you turn there is sumthin to remind u.
Why is it guys claim that they are so REAL but you give them a few weeks and they show you
they are as fake as Pamela Anderson's boobs.
Then like why is it when you find someone and you fall for them they play you like a nintendo wii?
It just boggles my mind...
People are so phony
Life is short...
Why is it that all the good ones are taken?
Then the other good ones are losers n ur eyes.
It always seems to go if u aint feelin dude like that he's all on ur bumper.
Then when u find homie wit the swag he's not on the same thing as you.
I just want to be loved!!!!


On another note the world is slowly falling apart.
The one thing im afraid of is the future!!!
The economy is so terrible. ..
Who ever voted for Bush!!!!


Im so tired right now im listening to Janelle Monae SHE'S A GENIUS!!!!
Open ur mind.
I love creativity it gets me excited.

I WANT TO FLY AWAY TO ANOTHER PLACE

WHERE EVERYONE IS THE SAME WITH NO RACE

NO ONE TO JUDGE JUST HAPPINESS ALL THE TIME

NO ONE GETS OLD EVERYONE IS AT THEIR PRIME